It’s funny how often I get asked if I miss California or if I would ever move back. It is one of the most difficult questions to answer. Do I miss it? YES. I still cry about it and miss the life I had there! And all of my friends and family. There are weeks where I feel like I’m still grieving California and it is extremely difficult. But i realized I’m mourning a life that doesn’t exist anymore. Even if we moved back – life wouldn’t be the same as it was. I miss and long for a life I can’t go back to. And the need for familiarity often lingers in my heart, but I try and remind myself that the Lord has allowed for me to be in TN and he has me here for however long he wants… And there’s a reason for it. I need to grow where I am and pursue the Lord where I’ve been called to be at the moment – and that’s here in Bon Aqua, TN. In the middle of nowhere 😅 I’ve grown more in this season of loneliness and homesickness. I know Christ more intimately and need him more desperately than I would if i had everyone and everything i wanted around me. So I’m not sure if I would ever move back! Maybe? Maybe not? There have been times I’ve been up all night questioning where we are supposed to be. But i can’t live my life wondering about things I don’t know. There are just so many “what ifs” to staying or going. And it’s not my job to figure that out! Im called to trust Christ, pursue Him, and strive to be more like Him… Wherever that may be… And right now that’s in Tennessee. So whether you’re confused about where, how, why or when in your life – don’t be. The answer is simply just to look to Christ. And wherever you end up – as long as he’s your purpose for living – you’ll be exactly where you need to be 🫶🏼